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I'm currently at changi airport, I was here to fetch my mother. She went to Hainan Island for a week with my aunt for holiday. I suppose she had tons of fun, so I'm happy for her. I brought my economics study guide along because I thought that I could study, I'm wrong. I've been so distracted since yesterday. Just somehow, I can't seem to sit down, focus and study. I don't know, it'll be better tomorrow. 5 more weeks to final exam and im honestly shitting my pants.

I watched the movie "Her" again last night. This time it gave me a lot of touchy feels. Maybe because it reminded me of us. I feel sad that our friendship has come to a definite end (?) but i felt like this was inevitable. I've been thinking about it a lot. I'm sad that we had to come to this. I honestly thought that we had something, really. But I guess I'm wrong. You've hurt me numerous times (you might not know it because I don't say it) but you have. the words cut and burn me in places I thought healed. But I guess they don't truly heal, eh. I'm supposed to cry a whole lot, but I didn't. I wept for probably 15 minutes and I wiped my tears, blew my nose and just shrugged it off. I think I agree with what Theodore said in the movie, that I've felt everything I'll ever feel and from now on I'm just going to feel a lesser version of things. that's how I feel about our split up I guess. I am supposed to feel very hurt and very sad, but this, I only feel a moderate amount of pain and sadness. It's not the fact that I didn't like you enough, I did like you, a whole lot actually. but as you continue to hurt me, my feelings for you eventually died down little by little. I'm sorry that this has to come down to me not replying or anything, but I feel like this is the only way, for now.