Change

I'm going through a period of change and I don't know how I'm feeling about it. Change is something that's not necessarily good nor bad. I see it as the colour grey. White colour would represent as white since I see it as purity and what not. Black colour would represent as black since negativity and etc is associated with it. The outcome of the mixture is Grey, which is a very pretty colour too, I'll admit. That's why I think sometimes the combination of both good and bad can create a very beautiful thing too. Sometimes.

I've just dumped out 3 cardboxes that was filled with books that I don't read anymore, used papers from high school and just crap. I've also gave away a big bag of clothes that I don't wear anymore. I think this is a very significant step of moving on to a new chapter in life, but as of now, I still don't know what that new chapter is. I think I'm nearing to the end of this chapter but I don't know how long more. I'm constantly anticipating for the new chapter since it would mean to have a new start but  sometimes the start of the chapter still somehow relates to the previous ones. But I think I'm ready for the new chapter, anytime now.

The last major change I went through was in April 2014. I chopped off my long hair and I went for a short haircut. Until now I'm trying to grow my long hair back but it's not working haha. It's been a year and it's at shoulder-length which looks pretty good. But i do miss having long hair but I also have the urge to cut it short now. I'm just debating if I should get those borderline edgy haircut. I'm worrying too much about not looking good in it. I mean it's hair, it's somehow going to grow back. But I like my current hair because it looks fucking good when it's messy. So, I'm in quite a bit of a dilemma here, dammit.

I'm actually getting kind of sleepy, I think I might head to bed soon. This is a miracle since I've been having trouble to actually sleep early but everyday's a new change eh. Oh well, goodnight then world.  Let me dream of something good, I'm so sick and tired of nightmares.