freedom

at last, i've finally completed my final exam today. i'm beyond elated. i'm currently sitting at a cafe on high street called Fresh, i think. Maybe it's called the shelf. i've ordered this ridiculously good hot chocolate. absolutely amazing. i've sinned so much today. from getting spicy chongqing food for lunch, durian mille crepe cake and now hot chocolate. tonight i'll see my boyfriend again before he flies off to indonesia for a month. good lord. i'll miss him so much.

the past few weeks have been relatively tough as i've been busy with exams and just panicking. i think the panicking got much much worse after my maths a paper. so much so to the point where i can't get any decent sleep because when i wake up, i'd think of how horribly i did. that and pms was just not a good combination. it was tough, really. it was just good of moira to break the rules and check my result for me to calm me down from all the panicking so i'll get some decent sleep in weeks (without the help of sleeping pills). but even with sleeping pills, i dont sleep well. so im not sure what to do at this point. maybe i'll not take sleeping pills and then see how it goes. maybe let dr. andrew know. maybe switch zopiclone to melatonin. maybe.

also, found a flat to stay and now i'm waiting for 29th may to come so i'll move out and live in the city. not a homestay. it was extremely lucky of me to be able to find a flat, living with a lovely flatmate on my first try. i think even though in a lot of areas, im extremely unlucky, i think i was lucky with these sort of thing. i'm definitely counting my blessings. especially since looking for a place to stay (esp in the city) where the rent is in a decent range with lovely people, it's rather rough. im not too religious, but thank you buddha, or whoever. i do think someone from above is looking after me, even though they've been testing me by putting me through tough times.

i'll probably go surf reddit and waste my time until i get to see my boyfriend! apparently we're having dinner at some fancy place, so i wore the best 'adult' clothes i've got. i also brought my passport along. so i think that's pretty good, aye. monday's result day. but for these few days, it's hannibal-binging time! i've been waiting for so long. FINALLY, FREEDOM.